Wishing To See You Again

Friday, December 28, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I sit here
Constantly crying.
Wondering why he made you move away from me.
I really can not believe it.

It wasn't your fault.
I only seen you one time.
I wish I could go back in time.
Just to hold you once more.

I'll never let you go
Neither will you.
You made a promise to me
That you will never leave me.

I still have one problem.
You still have yet to tell me.
How do you feel about me?
I don't know.

I rarely talk to you anymore.
Just thinking of you helps me ease this pain.
Yet, I am still crying.
When will we see each other again. my love?
I don't know.
I'll keep dreaming

You may not say you love me
...but when I say that to you.
You always say it back to me.
You have never told me how lucky you are
but I know how lucky I am to just have you love me.

You are my sugar and my spice.
You were the one who melted my heart made of ice.
I will always love you.
Now since you are far away
When will I ever see you again?

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In A Lonely Place

Thursday, December 27, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I see a woman walking with her man
The man with this woman smiling
As they walking to this mall.
As they kiss each other, holding hands
I get sick to my stomach
So jealous of how happy they are.
There's a couple of different people I could call right now
But the one I'm wanting don't want me at all right now
And that hurts through my heart, my mind and my soul
Staring at myself in a lonely place.

I wish I have someone.
That I can call my own.
That loves me just for me.
I am so tired of being alone.

I am wishing on a lonely star.
Waiting for you to call.
Tell me how you feel about me.
Tell me about us, you and me.
Maybe one day you will understand how I feel.

I dream of us being together.
Walking hand and hand
Down a moonlit park.
We are smiling as we walk.
It seems so pure.
Because you are the only person I’ll ever want.
Yet, I wake up.
Laying there in my room.
You have yet to call me.
You are the only person I want to see.
I don’t even know how you feel about me.
I feel neglected by you.
My mind is just stranded in a lonely place.

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Life On The Other Side Of The Mirror

Tuesday, December 18, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Beleive that the day gives you the best of the wishses in life.

Although that life has treated you bad but you always know how to get out of trouble.

Try to stand in every trouble that comes at you.

Have nothing stopping you but.

The Mirror is always looking at you and doing the oppisite of you.

Try to fight the evil in you and look closely to find what you want.

Break the chains of life.

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When Will You

Thursday, December 13, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I look forward to the days I am able to speak to you.
I see you online too.
I message you, you reply
...but when will you message me first just to say hi?

I have yet to call you.
..but you try to call me everyday.
I wait all day.
At the end it doesn't last
I am just happy to hear your voice
but I am still left alone at the end
You mean the world to me
You say I mean the world to you too.
When will you tell me?
Tell me first how I mean everything to you?

I look at you
You look at me
I waited
Then, I kiss you first
I don't ever mind it
When will you be able to kis me first, kiss me from head to toe?

I have you in my life
You are all I have.
I tell you how I feel
Even when I have so much to deal
When will you tell me?
When will you ever tell me how you really feel?

I tell you I love you.
You say it back to me too.
..but when will I ever hear it just from you
So I can say "I love you too"?

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Alone

Friday, December 07, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Alone in the dark night
Crying in my loneliness
but my tears are in vain
My pain is all I have

My dreams turn to dust
Heart filled with sadness
A soul burned to ashes
I've been ripped apart

Your emptiness chills me
but you cannot see it
within your dark eyes
I have no defenses love

I've suffered long enough
but nothings all you give
I'm eager just to see you
but I have no way to do so.

As another day goes by
I'm alone in a crown
Nothing more to say
It's just the way it is

I am suffering all alone.
You are in my heart
but am I in yours?
I am in the dark, where are you?

I'd do anything for you
You stand the sight me
Tell me am I good enough?
Tell me do you love me the way I do?

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To The Point Of Emptiness

Saturday, October 20, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I have no one to tell me it will be ok.
There is no one to stick up for me when I'm down.
There is no one to hold my heart.
To keep it from breaking.
I am to the point of emptiness.

All I can do is think.
I sit here alone crying while continiously staring.
My eyes wide open
...but all the pain is just held within my self.

I guess I am waiting for a guy to tell me that they love me.
Someone who I can actually love back without feeling so empty.
I don't see that ever happening.
No one knows the half of what I go thorough.

My dad blames me for everything.
Something I didn't do.

People by now would end their lifes.
...but I won't no matter how lonely I am.
The thought of my dream is keeping me alive.
I'm trying so hard.
To the point of a headache.
Just to be heard.
Just for my singing vice to be heard.

I am singing but no one hears me.
No one feels it.
I feel as though I am singing to myself.
...but yet, I am still singing.
It is my dream.

I am still the point of emptiness.
Even if I have to sing alone.
Where no one is in sight to hear it.
No one to catch my hear as is falls.

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I Don't Know

Friday, October 12, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

WHY AM I HERE?
ALONE?
IS IT TO FIND SOMEONE?
TO BE WITH?
NO?
YES?
WHO KNOWS BUT I'LL PLAY IT
BY YEAR....BUT...
ITS GETING EASIER
BUT I DONT REALLY KNOW
HER?
IS THAT WHAT I MEAN?
I DONT KNOW.

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You Think You Know Me

Friday, September 14, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

You think you know what it is like to be me?
Continue reading and you shall see.
You don't know what it is like to live your life daily
..but making it seem like your only friend is the computer screen.
There will always be someone that talks about you
but feeling like someone is after you is a different story.
Not being accepted is normal.
The feeling of rejection is much worse.
Walking the halls with people you know is fun.
...but at the end all they do is laugh behind your back.
I try hold in all my emotions.
When I get home, my heart is crying in continuious motion..
Having strict parents is also normal
...but having a strict blind father is another situation.
For me, is is so hard to find love.
My heart is like a delicate dove
Yet, shattered from the many rejections and the past heartbreaks.
There is no one like me.
Everyone can obviously see.
..but to them I am no more than just a weird outcast.
I don't fit in.
I am not even go enough.
What girls doesn't like boys?
What guys don't like girls?
Me, I' can like a guy
...but to a guy, I am not even worth their time.
Many says crushes are fun.
In my case, crushes are no fun when you get rejected every single time.
Everyone has something or someone that makes them feel good.
You don't know what it is like to always be in tears and not feel good about yourself even when someone tells you that you look good.
Everyone has lied before.
So have I.
When I do good, no matter what.
They lie to me
Especially if it is a guy.
You don't know what is like not to be able to put a real smile on your face.
I have yet to do so.
I have yet to feel truly happy.
Everyone wants that special person in their life.
You don't know how it is thinking you'll never find it.
Thinkign you was mean to be alone.
Having the one you like not like you back.
Or just being so afraid to tell that person you like them because you'll get rejected for the continuious time..
I sit in my room.
All alone.
Sometimes in the dark with the light from my computer shining.
Having no one to fix this cold heart of mine.
Crying so hard that my eyes actually start to burn a little.
Being judge every single day.
What I wear
What I do
How I do it
How I dress
How I wear my clother
How I walk
Asking me questions
Where's your mom?
What you do other that be online?
Why your dad is blind?
How your dad do this?
How ytour dad does that?
Telling me how I should do thing.
Telling me I should changed.
I am tired of changing.
I've within the past 4 years just to feel wanted.
...and yet it just didn't work.
Having your dad being overprotective of you is one thing
...but not letting me be a teenager is another.
He thinks places I would like to hang out at is too dangerous.
You don't know how it feels to just be sick of your life.
Waking up everyday alone.
Just wishing you had one guy that can love me.
Having one guy that wants to be with me
Having one guy to just accept me for who I am.
You think you know me?
Until you have lived my life
You know nothing about me
Only what your eyes can see.

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Save Me

Wednesday, September 05, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

My life is just a constant SPIN AROUND
Back and forth to a never ending web of emotions
No matter how hard I try
My heart is just CONSTANTLY dying.
Trying so hard to find someone in sync with me.
Someone for my EYES can really see.
Someone who can save me from all this PAIN.
No matter how hard I run.
I can't get AWAY.
Like a track star running everyday.
I am lying here in my self-pathetic life.
Can I just have someone that is just mine?
My WORLD.
My ETERNITY.
If you are out there, let yourself be known to me.
Just catch me as I am falling..
...because my heart has already took all chances
and the BIG leap.
Yet I fell way too DEEP.
I stuck here all ALONE.
I am just fed with my own sef-pain.
If you are out there, PLEASE come save me from all this PAIN.
All of it is TOO much to bare.
Let yourself be known to me so you can be my ETERNITY.

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Lies

Monday, July 30, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

You said you love me and I believed you.
I thought everything was going well but
you decided for us not to even be together anymore.
Just because you want kids so badly.
Kids in the future.
Even after you broke up with me.
You said you loved me.
Now I see it was all lies.
You say you've been hurt before.
Then you should know how I feel.
But you see, my heart will never heal.
It was already in pieces when you picked them up from the begining.
You'll never know what it is like to not be wanted by anyone, even now.
Girls think of you as "cute" and "sexy"
What do people think of me?
Nothing.
I am just another one of those ugly and nerdy girls.
You'll never know know how it is to cry everynight.
I lie in my bed wondering if anyone will just love me for who I am
...and not for what people want me to be or try to change me.
I know now you were just a lie like everyone else.
I was meant to be alone.
I forgot, you found someone better.
So you are not alone.
Honestly, you just didn't love me enough if you can find someone so quickly.
All of the times you were saying "I love you"
It was just all lies.
I should just forever let my heart hide.
Hide all the feelings in darkness.
You see, you just don't know how much I loved you.
But I guess you won't because you found someone better.
My heart is not broken, not shattered but dead.
All these thoughts racing through my head.
I'll never find anyone for me.
As you can see.
This is how you left me.
Remembering that everything was all lies.
You left my heart to die.
Leaving my heart all alone full of lies.

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Meant To Be

Thursday, July 26, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I think to myself
Why I can never be with anyone.
Now I know.
I was meant to be alone.
Not to have anyone.
No one to share dreams
No one to share memories with.
Honestly, I don't need anymore.
I am better off alone.
No one would understand
I walk through this world
Feeling like I am the only one left.
No one to sweep me off my feet.
No one to unlock my heart.
Connections, so I though.
Never again
Will I be so open.
Open this heart to other men.
I know how it supposed to be.
This is something so clear to.
I was meant to be alone.
Alone in this big empty space.

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Broken Music Box

Saturday, July 21, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I sit here all alone.
Distorted sounds
Want to run away from home.
Nothing is ever what it seems
But no one seems to even see
Heart broken into thousands of pieces.
Yet, no one would even miss it.
I am lying here with nothing to do
Waking up to another broken music box

Follow a dream that'll never come true.
Wondering if I'll even fall in love again.
Nothing yet to develop memories.
So I'll just sit here
Listening to this broken music box.

I will forever, never fit in.
Unsloved hopes
Undiscovered dreams
Yet, I'll never find.
I'll be just me.
I have a voice
That'll never be heard.
Waiting.....
For a dream to come true
I can't even be recognized.
Realized
That all I be doing
Is laying here
Listening to this broken music box
Playing in my lonely ears.

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Fallen

Tuesday, July 17, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

My heart has fallen to pieces yet again.
My seems to be only a mindless game.
There is truth to the words we spoke.
Too late to fis a heart that has been broken.
So perfect, yet so different.
One flaw seemed to tear us in two.
You wanting offspring. I didn't
Why couldn't you of told me this from the begining
It would of hurt so much.
I don't know.
It used to feel like heavan
Nothing feels the same now.
I'm all alone
Fallen and shattered to pieces.
Seems like everyone has a love just for them.
I'll just be alone once again
Fallen to pieces.

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Alone In A Big Empty Space

Monday, July 02, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

No one really cares
When I talk
What I feel and what I say

I am trying to find a stand
I'm alone in the big empty space.
I sit in my room
That is the only thing I can do.

Someone, take the time to care.
I want to be free.
I feel alone in this big empty space.

Maybe I'm just invisible to the world
Is there anyone in the world even think of me
I fell as though I'm no more than just a hopeless cause

I'm holding on to dreams that will never come true.
My life is on hold too.
I feel as though I am not here
Only the music that comes by ear
Everyone around me is having fun
I am just sitting here alone.

I want to cry
But I am crying inside.
No one to comfort me
Or catch my feelings as I fall.

A prisoner in my own home
No that will listen.
I wan't to be free
I want to live my dreams
I just don'e wan't to be alone inthis big empty space.

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The Sweetest Wish

Wednesday, June 20, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

The moon and stars are
bright and far
Just like the distance in
our hearts
The sky seems so peaceful
I feel to pray
I pray to make it through
another day
The brightness in the moon
reminds me of your eyes
through the pictures I see
The twinkle in the stars
makes me want to wish upon
a star
Maybe together we can wish
upon that star
And that wish will grant
our hearts to shine bright
and far through
My sweetest wish...

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I'm Anonymous, What to Say

Monday, June 18, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I'm sitting here contemplating
All of these misunderstandings.
Wondering if I am worth anymore.

Donsn't matter how hard I try.
At the end I'll always cry.
Doesn't anyone see me anymore.

I'm anonymous
I'm waiting here.
Wondering
Why I should be here?

...And I don't know what to do.
What to say

Even though I feel this way
Later on there'll be a day.
That someone will love me.

All these thoughts going through my mind.
I have nothing to hide.
...but is it even worth it anymore.

I'm anonymous
I'm waiting here.
Wondering
Why I should be here?

...And I don't know what to do.
What to say

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The Words I Regret

Sunday, June 17, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I told you how I felt.
There is no need for me to explain myself.
If gone ove it a thousand times in my head
but my love for you will never end.
There seems to be a wakening promblem
that plunges my soul and sweetly haunts my dreams.
I often wonder if you are even worth my tears and pain.

It seems as though you can't choose between her and me
but every time it seems as though you want her
and leave me out crying loves pain.
I told you the way I felt and how you make me feel.
Maybe I regret that and should left it the way it was
I should of never said a word.

I wonder why I even feel this way.
We have never met.
You say you want me
but I don't know what I should believe.
I am a step away from giving up.
My emotions are soon to erupt.
Yet, I am still here all alone.
Wanting you to feel the same way I do.
The words that I don't want to regret
The words of me saying "I love you"

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Distant Love

Tuesday, May 29, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I met you at the dawning of a new day
I really did not know just what to say
Your voice over the phone just sounded so right
That you really made me feel good and made my day so bright
As days went by I wondered how you look
Even though I seen pictures every chance I got
and wondered what part you would play in my life's written book
For now only time and space will tell
but for us right now things are going so well
So maybe one day when you come over to me.
My heart feels as though it has found true love and won't have to roam
I'll wait for the centuries to see your lovely face.
I'll wait for the centuries to hold you tight in my arms.
I'll wait for the centuries to taste your lips next to mine...
If I get lonely, I'll call you.
If you do, you call me too.
I told you how I feel and you know I fell in love with you.
I want to tell you face to face.
So, you hear this from me too.
..and to feel a kiss from you.
So just look at the stars up above
You'll find me there watching over you with happiness and love.

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Emotions From Within

Wednesday, May 16, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

When I write it is not rap, it is poetry.
You think it is a game but it is much more to me.
The truth is, it is my whole life through words.
Really, it comes a story with every verse.
This is me, and it is as real as it gets,
Listen up, I am going to go until the beat quits.

I might always seem happy, like nothing bothers me,
That is just something I pull upon my face, there is a lot you will never see.
It is hard to tell someone how you really feel,
But it is so easy, keepin your emotions concealed.
It is all locked within, safe in nothing but silence,
Until it all bursts out, here comes extreme violence.
That is not, because I replace anger with solitude,
Trying to cheer up, lose the rotten mood.
There is the light at the end of the tunnel, but its hard to find,
And that's that special someone, that's one of a kind.
But when you think you found him, just be ready for pain,
Because guys seem to know the game.
He may seem like that angel sent down from heaven,
But he would be with you at 4 and with her at 5.

I try not to fall in love,
But that little part of me says never give it up.
Just be careful with the people that you give your heart,
Because it is fragile, easy to rip apart.
Just like mine

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Anniversary

Monday, April 09, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I sit here wondering what went wrong beteen us.
I look at my calender
When our love first erupt.
What our day would of been.
Sometimes I even cry
I still wonder why.
I believed in all the words you say
Yet I look at this calender of what use to be our day.
Breaking my heart back in December
Which I clearly remember.
You go with someone you left me for.
It was like we lived together and you just walked out the door.
I thought I was the loyalty you needed.
I trusted you.
Yet, you decived me.
Yet, I still look at this calender wishing we were ever true.
I go with someone else
It doesn't compare to what I had with you.
I wish you knew that too.
My heart is like a diary.
Only one person can open it.
I thought you were those pages I can open up to.
You were that person.
So I thought.
I sit here
Wondering,
Looking at this calender
Looking at the day of what used to be our anniversary of 4/19/2006

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Notebook

Tuesday, April 03, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Alive feelings
pouring sad memories
a collection; a memoir
Piece by piece I put together
34 days and a life time
something touched. Something left
far away from mundane truth
or wars that were left unturned
some blood streaks from heart
some slow passion of sweetest lips
something to forget to
something to hold on.
Everything is everything
a touch never undone...

I read and feel. Every time
A new book, a new tale
A past history, a truth
Lies and broken promises
Metamorphic physics, memories
As if I live around you; in them
People, leaders, heroes, villains
Reinventing past; age of silence

Longings to belong to; persuasion
Loving to be unloved; be loved
Stories, poems, tales and reasons
Simple things mundane fathoms
Time watch; like a sand glass
Written history and fairy tales
Words : may be true or lies
Missing emotions ; urban feel
Blood, death, birth, love
Bodies of innocence; betrayals
Bodies of passion; in rubbles
Horror to relive; love to re-invent.

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Liar, Cheater, Deceiver, Heartbreaker

Monday, March 12, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Your nothing but a liar, a cheater, a Deceiver, heartbreaker.
Nothing but drama in my life.
You have lied to me for the last time,
You have deceived me and betrayed me,
My heart say's you're a liar.
There is nothing like your first love.
The same deceiver my heart seems to hold.
Look at you now.
See what you've become
You don't even care anymore.
Do I?
No.
You are nothing but a Liar, Cheater, Deceiver, Heartbreaker.
Broke me heart.
Too many times.
That is good through.
Stay with your same pick up lines.
You made me cry.
No more
You are still the cheater I know.
From all the heaven and stars above.
I won't stand for your lying, cheating, deceiving self.
I can't stand those type of people.
I know the game
I won't be played.
You are nothing but a Liar, Cheater, Deceiver, Heartbreaker.

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I'm Falling For You

Thursday, March 08, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Give me a reason
Why your heart is calling.
This isn't no game
This isn't just words
That I am saying
This is so hard for me.
I don't trust people
I shut people out
But...

I'm falling for you
and I know it's true
This is just for you

I'm falling for you
Only for you
You know it's true

You have amazed me
in the past few weeks.
You were just a friend.
But now, every time I look at you.
Every time you call.
You make me smile.

I am loving every moment of this.
The only question is, will you catch me...?

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Clear To Me

Wednesday, February 28, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Since I turned 17
Something became clear to me.
I know who I like
I know who I don't like.
Everything I got planned out for me.
That is what I see so clearly.
Being just friends is all I'll get.
But it won't be something I'll regret.
What should I say?
What should I do?
I will always be myself.
I know you will too.
This helps me to remind myself
How I feel about you.
I feel like a dork.
I am not the type person to keep feelings inside.
I've never been happier
I never thought this would happen again.
I have nothing to hide.
These feelings will remain
Even if I find someone else.
This is what is clear to me.

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My 17tth Birthday

Wednesday, February 28, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Being 17 breaks the glass,
New bond,
Returning bonds
Being 16 was the worst.
Shattered mirrors, painful ceiling,
Loveless, desolate exile bound.

Being 17 accoplishs riding the stormy clouds
My life is a soul I can compare it to a summer day
A bright light that brings happiness to all Summer fades
The leaves fall in ones and twos.

Don't want to relive the past.
Find new relationships.
May keep the same crush.
Forget all the hardships.
Everything will be different.

My life is a eye I see things and wonder, when will that be me?
Hoping they will see more to life and their future.
So it continues, my life as a teenager.
I've got to keep pushing on.

The sun doesn't shine all the time
There will be heartache and pain
But I take all the good and the bad
And I don't ever want to relive the past.

All this of a 17 year old girl, running through my head.
I know I got to be strong.
But sometimes I rather give up instead.

Don't tell me how to life my life
I won't let it.
I don't want to hear about your heartships
Because I've been there myself 10 times more than you.
Life still goes on
I am 17.
I am a survivor
That is what I realize.

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Confession of a Teenage Dancer

Sunday, February 25, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Now watch me work.
I am this multi-talent dancer.
Multi-Talent singer.
I am the next Janet Jackson
No simple baby stuff.
I like to move rough.
I'm picture pefect.
Running back
Styling
I'm my own.
Which a lot of people lack.
Profiling
You haven't seen what I can do
Until you watch me work
This is a confession of a teenage dancer.
My melodic voice
Music is my source
Popping like Chris Brown
1, 2 Step like Ciara going down.
I am a triple treat.
Let it be know.
The second I waste
The more I can take.
This is my true life story
Confession of a teenage dancer.

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Being Single

Saturday, February 24, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I am happy the way I am.
I am not hating or liking it.
Whatever happens, happens.
I want someone who is more than a freind
Someone close.
Someone to hold me
Someone to kiss me
Someone who likes to have fun as much as I do.

I'm not worried about having a boyfriend.
But wishing there was someone who I could go out with is a thought.
It is hard for me to trust anyone.
You have to be quite special to be able to break that blocked barrier.
Few people have done that.
Very few.

I may be shy but I am still a risk taker.
All my freinds are just so nice to me.
Having a nice, loving, working relationships that is based on trust and not all about touching is very difficult to find.
Like I said, I'm not worried.
I'll let them come to me.

Honesty is the one thing and also personality.
Maybe I'll never have a relationship
In my past relationships, I've gotten hurt.
So, I don't want that to happen ever again
Maybe this is how I protect myself
Keeping my heart locked and emotionless
But I am still the risk taker.

I am happy the way I am.
I am not hating or liking it.
Whatever happens, happens.
This is me being single.

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What Is Love?

Friday, February 23, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

What is love?

One writes of scars healed, a loose parallel to the pathology of the skin, but there is no such thing in the life of an individual. There are open wounds, shrunk sometimes to the size of a pin-prick but wounds still. The marks of suffering are more comparable to the loss of a finger, or the sight of an eye. We may not miss them, either, for one minute in a year, but if we should there is nothing to be done about it. Live through feeling and you will live through love. For feeling is the language of the soul, and feeling is truth.


No woman/man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever. If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them. Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.


War is like love, it always finds a way. You cannot love a thing without wanting to fight for it. For anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always work, patience, love, self-sacrifice -- no paper currency, no promises to pay, but the gold of real service. For in the end, we will conserve only what we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught.

A human being is a part of the whole, called by us Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest--a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole nature in its beauty. When all is said and done, friendship is the only trustworthy fabric of the affections. So-called love is a delirious inhuman state of mind: when hot it substitutes indulgence for fair play; when cold it is cruel, but friendship is warmth in cold, firm ground in a bog.

Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured - yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more than any material possession ever could. No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever.
Love won't be tampered with, love won't go away. Push it to one side and it creeps to the other. In the end... everyone is a winner cause everyone learns... one way or another!

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There Is Not Another Guy Like You

Thursday, February 22, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I've been in darkness for so long just waiting for the light,
And now that you have come my way, my days don't seem like nights.

I'm glad I'm finally overcome my fear so to speak.

I've never really felt this way about a guy before,
It is so different from before.

I know it's nothing serious, but surly it's a start,
You've treat me equally, I feel it in my heart.

And even as friends, I'm glad I've had this chance,
To see how great you truly are, even just for a glance.

We never know what'll come of this, it really just depends,
I'm glad we're talking, we're becoming better friends.

With you I never have to guess just how I really feel,
You talk to me about the facts and tell me what's the deal.

I feel so comfortable talking to you, like nothing can go wrong,
I get this tingly feeling inside, I guess you can say you are a true meaning of a friend.

I like you a lot. At least I didn't say I didn't ask you out.
At least I know I have my friendship with you.
You know this too.

The fact that you are older, really doesn't freak me out,
But you treat me like I'm your age, so there is no doubts.

I'm trying to live in the moment, by forgetting about the past,
And so far it's been working, and it's really been a blast.

So hopefully from this day forth, I'll know just what to do,
There isn't another guy like you..

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A Pressured Life

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I am a teenager, a pawn.
I have but one name, which is usually mispelled wrong.
I am surrounded by sin, I can't get away
I try hide it almost every day.
I'm shrouded in darkness.
Everyone wonders why I am so pale.
Almost 5 years ago I met my mother.
But without any bullets, what can be done?
Three years ago I started high school, thought I'd be free.
I could not believe how it sort of relaxed me.
I tried so hard to keep it hidden
For I knew it was forbidden.
But just a while ago I experienced a break up.
I can't believe I gotten this far.
But there's many feelings they'll never find
You see, the rest are in my mind.
Singled out for being myself
Putting my feelings on a high shelf.
Being dated just out of pity
Putting up with my rival.
All the things that the teachers claim
No matter what I am the blame.
They can't see the pain within
As my mind cuts my skin.
I cannot take this anymore
They'll never know what I feel inside
My heart clinched in my hand.
Wrapping my hands around my wrists
This story will not end yet with many twists.
Trying so hard to fit in
I find my way to entertain myself.
They all said I was a fool
I just walk there in the halls at school.

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Sovereign Of Silence

Sunday, February 18, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

You can't prevent the awakening of
the Sovereign of Silence slumbering.
Capture all enegy
Keeps everyone ewondering
Revive the Sovereign of Silence
Ancient moon goddess
The goddess of birth and death
Deep instinctual nature
Carries the dead to the underworld.
Nothing comes to creation without some destruction
Solve a mystery
We must enter the darkness
Outlook becomes dismal.
Stunned silence
Silence of grief
Silence is the sovereign contempt
Over the tangled expanse
Leaving all innocence behind.
Live in the dark.
Black wings
Purple eyes.
Jet black hair.
Messiah of Destruction
The day after the revolution
Illuminations
Ultimate power of death
This is, however, a necessary evil
for life cannot exist without death
just as good cannot exist without evil.
Inheriting
Time itself fell
Darkness is awakening
Enter the darkness
A sacrifice few could make.
Truly the beauty in the heart of that which terrifies.
Silence is golden
I am Mistress 9
the Sovereign of Silence

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I'm Falling

Sunday, February 18, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

You have amazed me in the past few weeks.
You were just a friend.
But now, every time I look at you.
Every time you call.
Every time you are with me.
You make me smile.
I haven't had this much fun in a really long time.
This is so hard for me.
I don't trust people. I shut people out because I am so afraid of being hurt by people...
But for some reason, with you I'm not so scared. I am trusting you, to let you in, to tell you things, and let you be a part of my life.
I am loving every moment of this.
I think I may be falling for you. The only question is, will you catch me...?

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Words

Sunday, February 18, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Do not set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Do not take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless. Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Do not give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other. Do not be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave. Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give love; The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly. Do not dismiss your dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope; To be without hope is to be without purpose. Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

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You Aren't Ready

Saturday, February 17, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

You aren't ready
So I'll wait.
I'll wait for you
Because I have fallen deeply.
I may have fallen in love with you.
Something that I never thought will ever happen again.
Interesting isn't it?
It is never too late.
A tarnished dream
I understand.
My thoughts of you.
Being with you.
I guess you know this too.
I'll wait.
I'm not hurt
because I understand
You're not ready.
You're not ready for a relationship at this time.
I guess you can say I have lifetime.
You are the first person I ever claimed to wait for.
Now I'm feeling you more.
I really like you.
What I feel
I can't explain it.
I'm so into you.
It is obvious.
What can I do?
All I can do is wait.
Wait until you are ready to be with me.
Then you will see.
This is real.
That's my word.
Very legit.
I'm so into you
I guess that is all that matters I guess.
I understand
So I'll wait
Wait until you are ready to be in
a realationship with me.
because I know in my heart that you actually want to be with me too.
Hope I am not wrong again.

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I Want You

Thursday, February 15, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Stop!
Wait a minute.
The way you move
You got my heart.
I just want to be with you.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.

I admitt it
This isn't no game and these are not just words.
That I am saying.
If you can see the thoughts that are in my head.
What should I do.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.

This is it.
I've made up my mind.
I want to try to get with you.
I look at you.
You look at me too.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.
I hope you want me too.

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Dear Diary

Wednesday, February 14, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Dear diary
Yesterday, I saw that boy
And I wondered if he noticed me
He took my breath away

Dear diary
I can't get him off my mind
And it scares me
Because I've never felt this way
Or have I?

No one in this world
Knows me better than you do
So diary I'll confide in you

Dear diary
Yesterday, I saw that boy
As he walked byand said "hi".
I thought he smiled at me

And I wondered
Does he know what's in my heart
I tried to smile, but I could hardly breathe
But I did smile.

Should I tell him how I feel
Or would that scare him away
Diary, tell me what to do
Please tell me what to say

Dear diary
One touch of his hand
Now I can't wait to see that boy again

He smiled
And I thought my heart could fly
Diary, do you think that we'll be more than friends?
I've got a feeling we'll be so much more than friends

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EditUnique Imperfections (Random)

Wednesday, February 14, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Scared eyes
This disturbed angel
Six poited
Silver addicted
Complete
What it is like to be me.
Rainforest petal
Don't be afraid
Beating hearts
No one comes close
Sweet addiction
Sounds sweet
Perfectly complete
Undying devotions
Terror
Sweet and blind
I say goodbye
There is nothing missing in my life
Or is it?
So chaotic
So phychotic
Love
Treat
Sweet
Secrets from the backseat
Suddenly the whole world is an imperfect place.
Jealous problem
I don't care
I'll keep it that way.
I'll go on and on
For so long.
Endless fight
Every night.
This and that
Alone
Home alone
If you only knew
You remind me of something
Treating myself
Silence
Peaceful Rave
Well tempered
Whimpering soul
It has tooken its toll.
Make it big
Splash
Life's lessions
So rational.
Change
Change brings freshness.
Twisted fate
My heart left at the gate.
Open the door
Turn the knob.
Enter
What do you see?
Understand
This is totally random
Turn your eyes
Acquaintance or friend?
Did my circumstances change?
Let's just see
These are just unique imperfections
My untold story.

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Live Life, No Rules

Tuesday, February 13, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Release all excess emotion in a controlled manner.

Broken and empty along the way
I've now forgotten what i forgot to say
I see the same, it's always a hidden ray
These feelings of loneliness are here to stay.

Can I tell you a secret. I've never got over you?
I can't do it, I can only live life by my own rules.
No rules

It is not simple.
What is the truth?
The only regret you'll have is not taking chances.

I've been through it all. It is life though.
I will do what I want.
No one will tell me what I want.
I live life.
Live by my own rules.

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My Self Worth

Wednesday, February 07, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

No need to feel worthless.
Never the less
I am who I am.
My birthday is coming up.
Changing emotion still erupt.
I am letting go.
Not feel as low.
I know my self worth
I will not be hurt

Take my hand
Understand
I may be misunderstood
but I know exactly who I am
You can't tell me what to do.
Who to be
What I am
I know my self worth
and no one will change that.

I will get what I rightfully deserve
Those who hurt me
They'll get what they wrongfully deserve.
I'll stay my independant self.
No one else.
My heart's on lock
It will not be broken.
I know my self worth
.....that is who I am!

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Foolish Valentine's Day

Wednesday, February 07, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

A Valentine can be a fragile thing
Romance and flowers last too brief a time of tender caresses
Which is subject to the same limitations but I shall try nonetheless.
On Valentine's Day to do otherwise
Would be completely
Foolish
A rose is no rose without its sweet smell and beauty.

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I Miss And I Remember

Monday, February 05, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I miss your name
I miss your face
I miss your warm embrace.
I miss the love we once knew, but I remember you have someone new.
I miss when you played our song but remember I cried all night long.
I miss how close we were, but I rememeber you have chosen her.
I remember how I memorized your walk
How we used to talk
The things you used to say but I remember you have gone away.
I miss your laugh and your grin
Your smile
The way you held me tight but I remember you talk to her everynight.
I missed when you said you loved me and that you'll never leave but I remember that you di leave me, left me for her.

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Dreams

Monday, January 29, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I hold on to my dreams.
I hold on to my memories.
I have a title to my right.
What I want is in sight.
Music is all I have.
I'll be the one with the last laugh.
Everything that I want.
I have to do it all alone and up front.
I don't beg for nothing.
I do it myself.
If I start.
I get nothing at all.
I deserve a lot.
Nothing was ever given.
I challenge my mind.
My thought are in line.
I will not let anything get in my way.
That is all I have to say.
I have my dreams.
that is what I shall follow.

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I Miss How We Used To Be

Monday, January 29, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I miss how we used to be. Together forever we thought we would be. I gave you my heart and you gave me yours but at the end you lied to me and tore my heart in 2. I wish you could see how much you truly hurt me. I wasn't really good enough for you. You never wanted me either. You wanted someone else to your liking. No matter if I am single or taken I will still have feelings for you. I think you know that too. The fact is I still love you.

I remember how we used to be. Late night phone calls and listening to the sound of your voice everytime you called. I miss the way you used to hold me tight. I knew that it felt so right. You are the one that I always seem to look at even when I was alone. It is impossible to like someone else if I still have these feelings for you. You know that too.

I just miss you and everything about you but I have to get over you. I remember how you broke my heart, how you left me alone crying for you and hoping you were just joking. When I saw you hugging and kissing someone I still forgave you. You didn't tell me but I still forgave you. Then you broke up with me left me alone. Breaking my bearing, breaking my soul. You talked about me to your friends, making me feel worthless and regreting everything we've done together.

I just miss how we used to be, how you used to kiss me, how when I was feeling bad about myself you lift me right off my feet. You called me "beautiful", something that no one has ever done before. My feelings for you are still in my core. I wish I can trust you and believe you just one more time. I wish I can hold and kiss you just one more time but yet you left me with a brokenheart and you didn't even cared but I still miss how we used to be.

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How Many Times?

Saturday, January 27, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

How many heartaches
Must I stand before I find a love?
I really thought he was the one.
It was just a silly game.

How many tears
Must I need to cry before I find love?
It is so hard
but I must keep my guard

How many times
Must my heart breaks to pieces?
before I find love
I am so misunderstood.
This is coming from deep inside.

One thing my heart is sure of.
I will not be played a fool.
My heart is on lock
No one will ever break it.

How many times
will it take to find my true love?

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You Didn't Love Me the Way that I Love You

Monday, January 22, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I have to get it out of my mind. All that you told me boy was right in front of my face. feel as though I've been here before even though it isn't the same. just hit the dorr. I am tired of these games.

You didn't love me the way that I love you.

You've done wrong but didn't admit it. I can't believe the boy I loved made me feel ashamed. Try to do the unity with you and me but now it's gone. Was together beautifully, I wish you could see you left left me all alone.

You didn't love me the way that I loved you.
You know that it is over and I can do without you. You are driving me crazy.

Remember the nights you used yo hold me tight. I brought you everything and you've taken advantage of it. That is cool because I am through with it.

You didn't love me the way that I loved you.
You know that it is over and I can do without you. You are driving me crazy.

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When People Talk Sh**

Friday, January 19, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

When people talk about you
You just ignore it.
But you can't help to think
that you want to punch their lights out.
They know that they are hating on you
but they can't be you.
They know that too.
I am tired of people talking shit.
I am left in a time continum
Those who start are on my list.
You can't be me.
You'll never be me.
For those I've dating are missing out.
Because you are not worth my time.
For as long as I can count.
You'll me me but you'll never have me.
Don't talk about me if you can't back it up.
I am tired of hearing it.
It is all the same.
So I'll go alone.
If I can't find love, oh well.
If you talk about me, oh well
but I won't hesitate to say something.
I will surely react.
Let it be know to those who talk shit.

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10 Feet Under

Friday, January 19, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I digging myself 10 feet deeper.
My head like a heater
Hot and heavy.
but not so bravely.
I hate myself for liking you
I am diging myself 10 feet deeper.
You know that too.
because I have told you too.
I'll wait to see what happens.
Even if I feeling like a dork.
I'll let let it work.
I have a crush on you.
You know that too.
But I am digging deeper.
I am digging myself 10 feet deeper
into something that I know will never work.
I'll just leave it alone
because I'll be risking my own soul.
Falling for you
because no one will catch me as I fall
As I fall 10 feet deeper in to this hole.

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Crush [Part I]

Wednesday, January 17, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

My emotions are wondering
but my thoughts remain
I know what I desire
I know who I admire
I feel for someone
who doesn't feel that way back.
Am I falling hard?
Or will I be caught as I fall?
Tell me, do you feel something?
I know I do.
I have this crush on you.
You know it's true.
I want it to advance futher
I'll be the one to comfort you.
I will even help you too.
Am I going about this the wrong way?
I don't know what you think.
Do you want me too?
I guess this is natural for you.
For those feeling the way I do.
My crush for you is true.
Not some silly illusion.
You are the one I want.
I want it to be more than just a crush.
I want it to be love.

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Come As I Am

Tuesday, January 16, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

No one will lie to me ever.
I won't take it, never.
I am come as I am.
No one will change that.
My life may have suck.
and everyone else is just gold plate.
but the tarnish reveals itself to me.
That is something my eyes can see.
I come as I am.
I am the creation.
My mind is set.
That is common knowledge, you bet.
Try me if you will.
but it will come 10 times harder
10 times better
and 10 times faster
better than the average.
I come as I am.
I am better than the aberage.
No one will stop me.
Consider this.
This is what you will see.
Nothing will stop me.
I come as I am.

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Think Of Me

Monday, January 15, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I walk around the city.
No even thinks of me.
I come home.
I sit in my room all alone.
I've been in relationships.
Being used more than twice.
Have you ever felt special?
I wasn't even called beautiful.
Am I even good enough.
I am tired.
I am exhausted.
I am close to burning myself out.
I am still here.
but no one thinks of me.
I cry in tears
but no one sees if it is real.

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None

Thursday, January 11, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I have none.
I am all alone.
I find out
that I am a atheist.
What I see beyond my dark brown eyes.
My soul bears to hide.
I believe in nothing.
No hopes and faith.
That's a big leap.
They sell their dreams that they can't keep.
No one understands what I am going through.
There's no heaven
There's no hell.
There's is just the world.
No one will tell.
I am just alone.
In a Atheists world.

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I Am Me

Thursday, January 11, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I am going to let lose.
I am going to do what I want to do.
Let them hate on me.
They don't care to see.
I am me.
No one else can be me.
I will make it happen.
I have myself to prove.
I have nothing for you.
I don't care if I stay alone.
I have retained my own soul.
You can say I am the lucky one.
The hard life I lead is a ton.
Make up your mind.
You want to stay with me.
Or just cut it.
If I can't trust you.
You might as well don't talk to me too.
I am me.
There will be no one else.
No change unless I want to.
I will break loose.
Break loose from the chains that bind me.
If you want to be rude and disrespectful to me.
Then just let me be
because I am just me.

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Who Am I?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Who am I?
Am I Christian or am I a Islam
Feeling angry but yet so calm.
I am black but can it all just be that?

Who am I?
I don't know myself.
I feel so selfish
yet am I doing the right thing?
I'm tired of being who I am.
I want to change.
I feel like such a little lamb.

Who am I?
I try to find out why.
Am I good or am I bad?
Am I happy or am I sad?
Should my decisions be smart
or are they just dumb.

Who am I?
I want to have something else.
To get me through my own self.
I beg to wonder
Where's my mother?
What is my background?

Who am I?
I need the strength to get over.
I need to keep myself sober.
What's my religion?
What can I do?
Can I change it when I want to?

Who am I?
I am still wonder why
How am I supposed to act.
There is something that I totally lack.
I want to start over.
Get rid of my past.
Start fresh and clean.
I will never look back.
I will not have to wonder why?
I won't have to wonder who I am?

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Time And Confusion

Monday, January 08, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

It takes time to find the one you love.
Not just one kiss and one hug.
The confusion of all it all.
Is finding the person who'll fill your heart.

My mind is pondering
I am wondering
The time it takes for someone to to start coming.
Liking 3 guys is confusion
but 2 of them are lusts illusion.

Who is the right one?
I'll take the time.
All the words like the shining sun.
So unbelieveable
So powerful
So realistic
but only one can end my confusion.

I'll take the time.
Who will show me true love?
I must grasp at that tiny hope
That only one will be my everything above.
It takes time to love someone.
but its vast confusion to figure out its illusion.

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Loss of Friendship or Thought of Rejection

Sunday, January 07, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Men are so analytical, yet they DON'T realize just how many their attitudes about women hinder them from finding true love....

I wanna talk briefly about the majority of men that are AFRAID to date their friends.

Men ALWAYS wonder where the good girls have gone, even though FEW men are willing to give a REAL WOMAN the chance to LOVE them.

When MOST men meet a girl that's fun, CUTE, nice, sweet, easy to talk to, etc. rather than considering her as a candidate for romance, the typical man locks her into the "FRIENDS" box & throw away the key forever.

Is it any wonder why men have such difficulty finding TRUE LOVE, when their minds are programmed to classify GOOD woman as being only good for friendship?

But, when you ask a man why they do this you'll usually hear "Because I DON'T want to lose the friendship" even though they tend to maintain contact with their ex-girlfriends anyway.

The risk of catching a lot of stuff for saying this, I'm just going to be honest....

I really DON'T buy it when a man says that he DOESN'T wanna risk losing a friendship.

MOST men have a deep-rooted desire to feel like they're IN CONTROL of their interactions with women.

The TRUTH is that MOST men AREN'T really afraid of losing the friendship.

They just want to have a girl to say they have known forever and treat differently from other girls. To me, I don't think that is right.

If a man decides to want to date his female friend then he should treat as good as the previous girlfriends he had and don't treat her like you don't want to talk to her and then keep the relationship going for only a week breaking up with her and start dating other girls after the breakup. I should know it happened to me.

My belief is that because guys get a kick out of breaking up with girls, the vast majority of women have an enormous FEAR of being rejected by a man they want!!!

They get a rush out of dishing out the pain but, they DON'T EVER want to be on the receiving end of rejection.

MOST women claim that it ISN'T ladylike to approach a man that they're attracted to they expect him to come to her instead] but, if I were to breakdown the percentages,

I'd estimate that:

5% of them are independent & liberated enough to throw gender roles out the window & approach any woman that they're attracted to.

25% say that it's NOT manlike & REALLY feel this way

40% say that it's NOT manlike; when the truth's that they're really just SCARED to do it

30% would NEVER approach a woman because some of these ladies are stuck-up &

EXPECT every man to make the 1st approach [even though they're planning to reject most of them just for the fun of it anyway].

These attitudes are what I truly believe are a PRIMARY CONTRIBUTING FACTOR to mens failures in love today & their repetitive poor choices in lovers.

GONE is the generation that believes a friendship is the foundation for a lasting relationship & as a result, men have programmed themselves toward chasing the woman that will NEVER be there for them [while letting fear drive them to neglect EVERY woman that would be].

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My Anonymous Love Letter

Thursday, January 04, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

I feel pain and you are there for me somehow, wiping my brow and whispering words of comfort. I want so much to repay your kindness to my heart, but i'm not sure where to begin at all. I know people always say to start from the beginning, but I don’t want to go back that far again. I want you to know who I am because of you being in my life, not who I was long before you came around my life, my heart, and always in my mind!!!

I can see many things when I look inside your eyes, to the center of who you are, who I am, and who we might be when we grow old together someday. Sharing the laughter of private moments alone or of the love shared in the dark of the night or the light of a sunny summer day. You are the light that guides my soul into a safe harbor I never knew before you came into my life.

Love is a great word to describe what I feel and how I felt when I fall for you every time that I see you come into the room. You shake the foundations of who I am and build me up when a piece crumbles away from me.

I’m scared to face the day again without you in some way. You make life worth living for whatever time I might have left a day, a month, years, a lifetime of memories to fill my heart. Things smell sweeter and bitter all at the same time, things that never seemed to interest me, now they do because they interest you somehow. I miss your voice in my ear, your voice as it quivers with my loving confession, hoping it doesn’t fall upon deaf ears.

The heat of your heart, the dawn of your soul felt through the specks of freckles on your skin. Eyes giving life to the soul I see through them, through me, about me, all that I know they know too. I long for and sometimes fear the touch that will link spot to freckle and freckle through to my heart. I want someone to trace the lines together and make me whole again, inside more than the outside; the inside is who I really am to those I love.

I commit my heart to this pen, and my soul to the paper beneath it. I only hope the words are what I want them to be and what I want you to hear. I want to be tears forming in your eyes, wiped away by my lips upon your cheeks, a sweet salty taste. Something given out of love and not from pain, something dreamed of in the middle of the night, granting a wish to a lonely heart of hearts! Hear my voice crying out in the night to take me back one more time; don’t let this love die in the darkness of the night. Rage on with it, fight for it, fight for a heart that loves you beyond our years. Place your hand upon my chest again and feel a heart that beats for you alone, that skips a beat whenever you are near me, and that only wants for you to love it back. Share a kind word between our hearts until the sun comes back around again. Survive another day with my love in your heart to cast away the darkness that hangs just behind our eyes. Come to rest in my arms as my fingers play with your hair. Let me kiss the lips I remember so well in my memories that danced with mine, a passionate dance. I want you to know how much you scare me, when you smile in my direction. To know you are thought about, loved, cared for, dreamed about....and longed for in some way. Stop my heart by returning to me, give my memories back to me and tell me that you love me too.

The Anonymous Poet
(MAD - 2006)

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Leave Me Alone

Wednesday, January 03, 2007 Mellyssa A. Diggs 0 Comments

Now you want to be friends with me.
You just don't see.
I really don't like you.
You've lost all respect in me.
What you did will never change.
You left a hole that doesn't compare in range.
Just leave me alone.
My heart for you has turned to stone.
I can not forgive you.
I don't care what you do.
Just leave me be.
Go see your girls, not me.
You talk about me behind my back.
Now you'll know how I'll react.
If you got something to say, say it to me.
Otherwise, keep your mouth shut about me.
I will not be disrespected.
I am protecting my soul.
So, just leave me the hell alone.

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