Clear To Me

Since I turned 17
Something became clear to me.
I know who I like
I know who I don't like.
Everything I got planned out for me.
That is what I see so clearly.
Being just friends is all I'll get.
But it won't be something I'll regret.
What should I say?
What should I do?
I will always be myself.
I know you will too.
This helps me to remind myself
How I feel about you.
I feel like a dork.
I am not the type person to keep feelings inside.
I've never been happier
I never thought this would happen again.
I have nothing to hide.
These feelings will remain
Even if I find someone else.
This is what is clear to me.

My 17tth Birthday

Being 17 breaks the glass,
New bond,
Returning bonds
Being 16 was the worst.
Shattered mirrors, painful ceiling,
Loveless, desolate exile bound.

Being 17 accoplishs riding the stormy clouds
My life is a soul I can compare it to a summer day
A bright light that brings happiness to all Summer fades
The leaves fall in ones and twos.

Don't want to relive the past.
Find new relationships.
May keep the same crush.
Forget all the hardships.
Everything will be different.

My life is a eye I see things and wonder, when will that be me?
Hoping they will see more to life and their future.
So it continues, my life as a teenager.
I've got to keep pushing on.

The sun doesn't shine all the time
There will be heartache and pain
But I take all the good and the bad
And I don't ever want to relive the past.

All this of a 17 year old girl, running through my head.
I know I got to be strong.
But sometimes I rather give up instead.

Don't tell me how to life my life
I won't let it.
I don't want to hear about your heartships
Because I've been there myself 10 times more than you.
Life still goes on
I am 17.
I am a survivor
That is what I realize.

Confession of a Teenage Dancer

Now watch me work.
I am this multi-talent dancer.
Multi-Talent singer.
I am the next Janet Jackson
No simple baby stuff.
I like to move rough.
I'm picture pefect.
Running back
Styling
I'm my own.
Which a lot of people lack.
Profiling
You haven't seen what I can do
Until you watch me work
This is a confession of a teenage dancer.
My melodic voice
Music is my source
Popping like Chris Brown
1, 2 Step like Ciara going down.
I am a triple treat.
Let it be know.
The second I waste
The more I can take.
This is my true life story
Confession of a teenage dancer.

Being Single

I am happy the way I am.
I am not hating or liking it.
Whatever happens, happens.
I want someone who is more than a freind
Someone close.
Someone to hold me
Someone to kiss me
Someone who likes to have fun as much as I do.

I'm not worried about having a boyfriend.
But wishing there was someone who I could go out with is a thought.
It is hard for me to trust anyone.
You have to be quite special to be able to break that blocked barrier.
Few people have done that.
Very few.

I may be shy but I am still a risk taker.
All my freinds are just so nice to me.
Having a nice, loving, working relationships that is based on trust and not all about touching is very difficult to find.
Like I said, I'm not worried.
I'll let them come to me.

Honesty is the one thing and also personality.
Maybe I'll never have a relationship
In my past relationships, I've gotten hurt.
So, I don't want that to happen ever again
Maybe this is how I protect myself
Keeping my heart locked and emotionless
But I am still the risk taker.

I am happy the way I am.
I am not hating or liking it.
Whatever happens, happens.
This is me being single.

What Is Love?

What is love?

One writes of scars healed, a loose parallel to the pathology of the skin, but there is no such thing in the life of an individual. There are open wounds, shrunk sometimes to the size of a pin-prick but wounds still. The marks of suffering are more comparable to the loss of a finger, or the sight of an eye. We may not miss them, either, for one minute in a year, but if we should there is nothing to be done about it. Live through feeling and you will live through love. For feeling is the language of the soul, and feeling is truth.


No woman/man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever. If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them. Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.


War is like love, it always finds a way. You cannot love a thing without wanting to fight for it. For anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always work, patience, love, self-sacrifice -- no paper currency, no promises to pay, but the gold of real service. For in the end, we will conserve only what we love. We will love only what we understand. We will understand only what we are taught.

A human being is a part of the whole, called by us Universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest--a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole nature in its beauty. When all is said and done, friendship is the only trustworthy fabric of the affections. So-called love is a delirious inhuman state of mind: when hot it substitutes indulgence for fair play; when cold it is cruel, but friendship is warmth in cold, firm ground in a bog.

Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured - yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more than any material possession ever could. No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever.
Love won't be tampered with, love won't go away. Push it to one side and it creeps to the other. In the end... everyone is a winner cause everyone learns... one way or another!

There Is Not Another Guy Like You

I've been in darkness for so long just waiting for the light,
And now that you have come my way, my days don't seem like nights.

I'm glad I'm finally overcome my fear so to speak.

I've never really felt this way about a guy before,
It is so different from before.

I know it's nothing serious, but surly it's a start,
You've treat me equally, I feel it in my heart.

And even as friends, I'm glad I've had this chance,
To see how great you truly are, even just for a glance.

We never know what'll come of this, it really just depends,
I'm glad we're talking, we're becoming better friends.

With you I never have to guess just how I really feel,
You talk to me about the facts and tell me what's the deal.

I feel so comfortable talking to you, like nothing can go wrong,
I get this tingly feeling inside, I guess you can say you are a true meaning of a friend.

I like you a lot. At least I didn't say I didn't ask you out.
At least I know I have my friendship with you.
You know this too.

The fact that you are older, really doesn't freak me out,
But you treat me like I'm your age, so there is no doubts.

I'm trying to live in the moment, by forgetting about the past,
And so far it's been working, and it's really been a blast.

So hopefully from this day forth, I'll know just what to do,
There isn't another guy like you..

A Pressured Life

I am a teenager, a pawn.
I have but one name, which is usually mispelled wrong.
I am surrounded by sin, I can't get away
I try hide it almost every day.
I'm shrouded in darkness.
Everyone wonders why I am so pale.
Almost 5 years ago I met my mother.
But without any bullets, what can be done?
Three years ago I started high school, thought I'd be free.
I could not believe how it sort of relaxed me.
I tried so hard to keep it hidden
For I knew it was forbidden.
But just a while ago I experienced a break up.
I can't believe I gotten this far.
But there's many feelings they'll never find
You see, the rest are in my mind.
Singled out for being myself
Putting my feelings on a high shelf.
Being dated just out of pity
Putting up with my rival.
All the things that the teachers claim
No matter what I am the blame.
They can't see the pain within
As my mind cuts my skin.
I cannot take this anymore
They'll never know what I feel inside
My heart clinched in my hand.
Wrapping my hands around my wrists
This story will not end yet with many twists.
Trying so hard to fit in
I find my way to entertain myself.
They all said I was a fool
I just walk there in the halls at school.

Sovereign Of Silence

You can't prevent the awakening of
the Sovereign of Silence slumbering.
Capture all enegy
Keeps everyone ewondering
Revive the Sovereign of Silence
Ancient moon goddess
The goddess of birth and death
Deep instinctual nature
Carries the dead to the underworld.
Nothing comes to creation without some destruction
Solve a mystery
We must enter the darkness
Outlook becomes dismal.
Stunned silence
Silence of grief
Silence is the sovereign contempt
Over the tangled expanse
Leaving all innocence behind.
Live in the dark.
Black wings
Purple eyes.
Jet black hair.
Messiah of Destruction
The day after the revolution
Illuminations
Ultimate power of death
This is, however, a necessary evil
for life cannot exist without death
just as good cannot exist without evil.
Inheriting
Time itself fell
Darkness is awakening
Enter the darkness
A sacrifice few could make.
Truly the beauty in the heart of that which terrifies.
Silence is golden
I am Mistress 9
the Sovereign of Silence

I'm Falling

You have amazed me in the past few weeks.
You were just a friend.
But now, every time I look at you.
Every time you call.
Every time you are with me.
You make me smile.
I haven't had this much fun in a really long time.
This is so hard for me.
I don't trust people. I shut people out because I am so afraid of being hurt by people...
But for some reason, with you I'm not so scared. I am trusting you, to let you in, to tell you things, and let you be a part of my life.
I am loving every moment of this.
I think I may be falling for you. The only question is, will you catch me...?

Words

Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others. It is because we are different that each of us is special. Do not set your goals by what other people deem important. Only you know what is best for you. Do not take for granted the things closest to your heart. Cling to them as you would your life, for without them, life is meaningless. Do not let your life slip through your fingers by living in the past nor for the future. By living your life one day at a time, you live all the days of your life. Do not give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying. It is a fragile thread that binds us to each other. Do not be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave. Do not shut love out of your life by saying it is impossible to find. The quickest way to receive love is to give love; The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly. Do not dismiss your dreams. To be without dreams is to be without hope; To be without hope is to be without purpose. Do not run through life so fast that you forget not only where you have been, but also where you are going. Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored each step of the way.

You Aren't Ready

You aren't ready
So I'll wait.
I'll wait for you
Because I have fallen deeply.
I may have fallen in love with you.
Something that I never thought will ever happen again.
Interesting isn't it?
It is never too late.
A tarnished dream
I understand.
My thoughts of you.
Being with you.
I guess you know this too.
I'll wait.
I'm not hurt
because I understand
You're not ready.
You're not ready for a relationship at this time.
I guess you can say I have lifetime.
You are the first person I ever claimed to wait for.
Now I'm feeling you more.
I really like you.
What I feel
I can't explain it.
I'm so into you.
It is obvious.
What can I do?
All I can do is wait.
Wait until you are ready to be with me.
Then you will see.
This is real.
That's my word.
Very legit.
I'm so into you
I guess that is all that matters I guess.
I understand
So I'll wait
Wait until you are ready to be in
a realationship with me.
because I know in my heart that you actually want to be with me too.
Hope I am not wrong again.

I Want You

Stop!
Wait a minute.
The way you move
You got my heart.
I just want to be with you.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.

I admitt it
This isn't no game and these are not just words.
That I am saying.
If you can see the thoughts that are in my head.
What should I do.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.

This is it.
I've made up my mind.
I want to try to get with you.
I look at you.
You look at me too.

Can I be your friend?
This is how I feel
I'm in need of love.
You seem like my type.
We can get to know each other.
I just want you.
I hope you want me too.

Dear Diary

Dear diary
Yesterday, I saw that boy
And I wondered if he noticed me
He took my breath away

Dear diary
I can't get him off my mind
And it scares me
Because I've never felt this way
Or have I?

No one in this world
Knows me better than you do
So diary I'll confide in you

Dear diary
Yesterday, I saw that boy
As he walked byand said "hi".
I thought he smiled at me

And I wondered
Does he know what's in my heart
I tried to smile, but I could hardly breathe
But I did smile.

Should I tell him how I feel
Or would that scare him away
Diary, tell me what to do
Please tell me what to say

Dear diary
One touch of his hand
Now I can't wait to see that boy again

He smiled
And I thought my heart could fly
Diary, do you think that we'll be more than friends?
I've got a feeling we'll be so much more than friends

EditUnique Imperfections (Random)

Scared eyes
This disturbed angel
Six poited
Silver addicted
Complete
What it is like to be me.
Rainforest petal
Don't be afraid
Beating hearts
No one comes close
Sweet addiction
Sounds sweet
Perfectly complete
Undying devotions
Terror
Sweet and blind
I say goodbye
There is nothing missing in my life
Or is it?
So chaotic
So phychotic
Love
Treat
Sweet
Secrets from the backseat
Suddenly the whole world is an imperfect place.
Jealous problem
I don't care
I'll keep it that way.
I'll go on and on
For so long.
Endless fight
Every night.
This and that
Alone
Home alone
If you only knew
You remind me of something
Treating myself
Silence
Peaceful Rave
Well tempered
Whimpering soul
It has tooken its toll.
Make it big
Splash
Life's lessions
So rational.
Change
Change brings freshness.
Twisted fate
My heart left at the gate.
Open the door
Turn the knob.
Enter
What do you see?
Understand
This is totally random
Turn your eyes
Acquaintance or friend?
Did my circumstances change?
Let's just see
These are just unique imperfections
My untold story.

Live Life, No Rules

Release all excess emotion in a controlled manner.

Broken and empty along the way
I've now forgotten what i forgot to say
I see the same, it's always a hidden ray
These feelings of loneliness are here to stay.

Can I tell you a secret. I've never got over you?
I can't do it, I can only live life by my own rules.
No rules

It is not simple.
What is the truth?
The only regret you'll have is not taking chances.

I've been through it all. It is life though.
I will do what I want.
No one will tell me what I want.
I live life.
Live by my own rules.

My Self Worth

No need to feel worthless.
Never the less
I am who I am.
My birthday is coming up.
Changing emotion still erupt.
I am letting go.
Not feel as low.
I know my self worth
I will not be hurt

Take my hand
Understand
I may be misunderstood
but I know exactly who I am
You can't tell me what to do.
Who to be
What I am
I know my self worth
and no one will change that.

I will get what I rightfully deserve
Those who hurt me
They'll get what they wrongfully deserve.
I'll stay my independant self.
No one else.
My heart's on lock
It will not be broken.
I know my self worth
.....that is who I am!

Foolish Valentine's Day

A Valentine can be a fragile thing
Romance and flowers last too brief a time of tender caresses
Which is subject to the same limitations but I shall try nonetheless.
On Valentine's Day to do otherwise
Would be completely
Foolish
A rose is no rose without its sweet smell and beauty.

I Miss And I Remember

I miss your name
I miss your face
I miss your warm embrace.
I miss the love we once knew, but I remember you have someone new.
I miss when you played our song but remember I cried all night long.
I miss how close we were, but I rememeber you have chosen her.
I remember how I memorized your walk
How we used to talk
The things you used to say but I remember you have gone away.
I miss your laugh and your grin
Your smile
The way you held me tight but I remember you talk to her everynight.
I missed when you said you loved me and that you'll never leave but I remember that you di leave me, left me for her.