Endless Love

How you hold me
Was never a rough touch
How you kiss me
Made me want you.
Ever so much
How you try to tickle me
Made me think
How you always try to make
Me laugh
How we make love
I never felt dirty
You are like my bath
To scrub my pain
My woes and my sorrows
How you move me
Takes all the pain away
You would even hold me
Afterwards
How you talked to me
With NO type of disrespec
How you continue to leave
me with a glowing smile.
You continue to remind me
And I'll will never forget
No could ever
Compare to you.

Dreaming Of Happiness

Each day I lose
What is left of my soul
I feelings I cannot choose
Because they continue to hide

There is nothing I want more than to be with you
But I cannot until you can make the choice
How much I want to be happy
But that is something non-existent to me now

I was happy being with you
I had someone to call my own
But I keep on forgetting that it is nothing more
That is a deep imagination

I will continue to dream
Of what it is like to be with you again
or at least what it is like to be happy
Or to that effect.

I walk around seeing
The darkness I feel
Leave it to me
I will continue to walk that path on my own

I want to feel happiness
That happiness I found in you
Now, i am not sure, if it is gone
But I find myself dreaming of that same thing.
I find myself dreaming of happiness.

The Purpose Of My Own Tears

Written: November 17, 2009

I feel like I have no purpose anymore
The pain is all too real
It is like I am living in this world
With no one to turn to.

I never thought being alone
Would be so natural
It just like breathing
Instead I am doing it on my own

I never had anyone to turn to
Constant arguments and blank stares
I give up on trying
Because I feel unworthy of my own tears

Leave it as it may be
The one I thought I still had
I could possible loose him too.
Maybe I deserve everything I get

Maybe I am really that pathetic as it seems
Or maybe I am just fed up with everyone else
No one sees me for who I am
But I am not looking for any type of acceptance

I will never be worthy of anyone
Not even my own soul
Though I continue to hide every pain possible
Sometimes I return to my room alone and cry.

Love Of My Life That Hurts

Written: November 11, 2009

You are the love of my life
You completely have my heart
I only trust you with my love
It kills me that we are so much apart.

I miss you like a mother misses her child.
I think about you until the morning sun.
I keep quiet just so you don’t notice.
My love can never be done

You mean the world to me
But I am giving you time
Even thought you treat me different
I with stand every minute.

I would give you the world to make you happy.
I gave you my heart, but I would give you my soul
You eyes are what tell me
How you truly feel

I will wait until my dying day
Reject every man that comes my way
Until you want to be with me again
Or you say the complete opposite that you never
Want to be with me again.

Promises

You were my boyfriend
You are my world
We were so great together
You promised to love me forever
You promised their was no one to take my place
I promised to give you your space
But you promised to be there when I needed you
I promised to take care of you too
but, you kept pushing me to the end
Always replacing me with other things
Until we have totally grown apart
Didnt you know it would break my heart?

Now we are two different
People in the same spot
Pretending to be something we know were not
We don't even kiss and hug
I thought you we're still in love
We both know its not the same
There is no one here to take the blame
I just need someone other than a friend that needs me the same.

I don't have many friend though
I do not want to be alone again.
Though you promised not to.
Now it feels like someone has closed that door

Maybe someday we will try again, as I wait
Hopefully by then it wont be too late
I will love you till the end of time
but I might not be here
When you make up your mind.

Physics 101

It was not physics that taught me
The relationship between time, and distance,
But rather my love for you.

When those blissful moments
Spent in the softness of your lips
Made time vanish in the blink of an eye!

And the torment of those lonely nights
Spent in the absence from your warm embrace
Made my love for you eternal!

Heart On Solid Numbness

I don’t want to feel anymore
But you claim I mean the world to you
I still do not understand
If you still left my heart crying in two

How can you love me
If you don’t want to be with me
You mean the world to me
But what do I mean to you

Maybe I am not meant to be with anyone
The emotion continues to be there
But I remain alone
Because I continue to be the toy of emotion

I cannot even be around you
Because your tone is so cold
Making what you feel confusing to me
Even when you are the person I want to hold

You are a part of my life
But not in the way I dreamed it to be
My soul is becoming numb
As loving you so much; I continue to fall.