Forever

On so many levels
it hurts to breathe.
Heartache for moments
lost.

To pick up the phone
and hear his voice,
The sweetest thing.

Ask how he's doing
say hello,
I love you Dad.

Did he know how much
I care.
Did he know how much
I love him.

Grief for moments
Lost, frozen in time.
All the words left
Unsaid.


I love you.

Outside The Box

Invisible chains quiet thoughts
anchored to an idea
afraid of reality.

Confined within lines, stagnant
in a pool of self mistrust.

Lack of creativity dull senses to gray;
dawn of a new day, check
outside the box.

I Don 't Know What To Do

I don't know what to do.
Am I a good person?
I am a bad girlfriend.
I don't know why.
I don't know.
Who can I trust?
I am just nothing to anyone.
He is my love.
He is the only one I got.
I have so many dreams in my head
but they will never become reality.
I dream of a summer breeze.
Nothing much.
Just spending it with the one I love.
Let me be free.
Will I ever be free from these chains.
I don't know what to do.
No one listens to be.
I am just a shadow to be picked on.
I just cry
No one cares.
I don't know who I am.
I don't know what to do.
In my heart I love him.
That is all I have.
If I loose a hold of that.
I won't get my life in track.
I just wish I was happy.
I am always crying.
No one seems to see.
How I feel deep inside.
I don't know what to do.
Can't trust anyone.
It hurts so bad
but I have been so used to it.
Somebody tell me
Tell me what to do.
Someone keep me from crying.
I love him and he loves me.
That is all I got
but still I don't know what to do.
Nothing ever seems to go right.
I will be alone once again
and maybe even die lonely at home.
Tell me what to do?
I am sck of my life.
It is not worth living.
I am not worth anything.
Someone save me from this.
Steady crying
Never happy.
Except alone with him.
Hopefully, he'll be the one who saves me.

What Can I Do?

What can I do to be left alone.
All the chills down to the bone.
I am tired of everyone messing with me
Why can't they let me be?
I am going through so much.
Such an adreneline rush.
All bottled deep inside.
My feelings that I just can not hide.

What can I do to stop something from happening.
I don't want him to go.
My mind and heart is just so low.
He is all I got.
I want me with him, which I can not.
Nobody know.
It doesn't show.
I just want my soul to glow.

What can I do to just be accepted.
All I want is to be respected.
It has sunk so low.
My life has taken its toll.
I cry into tears.
That is all I hear through my ears.
What can I do.
Is it me or you?

Random [Crazy Thoughts]

A walk to the moon and back... with schizophrenic conversations.
Nature's pyrotechnics
It came down to a whisper.
Wanderlust
In the air tonight.
New Shade of lipstick.
Such random things.
One more thing
Proof of life.
At last
Do you bleed
under the weather?
It's art
Back to the basics
Morning after
Night time sky.
Reclamation
Self justification
One taste, one breath.
Toes tingle
If it didn't.
Window to the Soul
Self Reflection
Isn't it ironic.
Failure to follow through
Reflections over a bottle
Fast lane.
In my mind
Ever tamed.
Sinuous melody.
Questions from the soul
Try to listen
Stolen kisses
Is it worth the risk?