Lies

You said you love me and I believed you.
I thought everything was going well but
you decided for us not to even be together anymore.
Just because you want kids so badly.
Kids in the future.
Even after you broke up with me.
You said you loved me.
Now I see it was all lies.
You say you've been hurt before.
Then you should know how I feel.
But you see, my heart will never heal.
It was already in pieces when you picked them up from the begining.
You'll never know what it is like to not be wanted by anyone, even now.
Girls think of you as "cute" and "sexy"
What do people think of me?
Nothing.
I am just another one of those ugly and nerdy girls.
You'll never know know how it is to cry everynight.
I lie in my bed wondering if anyone will just love me for who I am
...and not for what people want me to be or try to change me.
I know now you were just a lie like everyone else.
I was meant to be alone.
I forgot, you found someone better.
So you are not alone.
Honestly, you just didn't love me enough if you can find someone so quickly.
All of the times you were saying "I love you"
It was just all lies.
I should just forever let my heart hide.
Hide all the feelings in darkness.
You see, you just don't know how much I loved you.
But I guess you won't because you found someone better.
My heart is not broken, not shattered but dead.
All these thoughts racing through my head.
I'll never find anyone for me.
As you can see.
This is how you left me.
Remembering that everything was all lies.
You left my heart to die.
Leaving my heart all alone full of lies.