After Midnight

Nothing I can do. Nothing I can say. 

I'm sitting here wondering.

Getting way to comfortable. 

There's no place to blame. 

There's no one else. 

A semi code of conduct. 

Helping others rather than myself. 

Brings me a little peace. 

But also loneliness. 

You would think. 

With the man I have.

I wouldn't be. 

Sometimes I wonder. 

If I am even thought of. 

I just keep it all together.

Red eyes.

Forcing myself not to cry. 

It must be fun. 

To have someone to count on. 

To not lay down alone. 

I just find myself always moving. 

To keep my mind off these subtle things.

He did make a promise to me. 

Not to leave me this way. 

Another emotional breakdown. 

Nothing but my own sound. 

I guess that's how it is supposed to be. 

I don't even seek anything. 

Just to get rid if these pathetic, lonely thoughts sometimes.