All I wanted was to fall in love.
To be genuinely in love with a man.
Someone strong enough to keep me sane.
But vulnerable enough to let me in.
I treat my man like a king.
Or, at least, try to.
This is no meaningless fling.
This is true love I am feeling.
Even though he loves me the same.
There's one thing pushing him away.
He wants to have children.
Even though it is with me, I do not desire it.
I am amongst the statistic of 30%
Women who do not want to procreate.
Procreation is not my life purpose.
Our relationship is now damaged by fate.
Somehow that is not a real reason.
There is no pleasing.
I guess it's all over now.
I suppose love is not strong enough to keep us together.
When I love it is sacred.
It is unconditional, full of sacrifices.
At least he can be happy.
However, I may never be.
I am beginning to lose all hope to love.
However, he is the only one I love.
More than words can express.
It just wasn't strong enough to keep us together.
The worst part is I want no one else.
There is no one else like him
Thus, we are still living together.
I just want it to all be ok again.
I sit here and barely thinking
I am kind-of day dreaming.
The day I have my happy ending.
Your heart I am always defending.
Living life of love
Something to be proud of.
I want to give the world to you.
I love you..
More than anything.
I will be yours.
You will always be mine.
My protector and best friend.
I picture the day inside my mind.
Our hearts are totally aligned.
Nothing will keep us away.
From our dreams and hopes
We want to succeed.
You are the center of my life.
Soon to be your wife.
I will never go away.
From the choice I have made.
My vow to you.
Stay with me
I will be right here.
Still together as we shall be.
I will never leave.
I am not going nowhere.
Even when forever is gone.
We will be together happily ever after.
They do it because they do not know.
Maybe they think they will get something though.
They only talk to me when I am on top.
The only time I hear from people is when in need.
It really don't make any sense.
I guess I am naive in my defense.
Only around me when I am hanging with my friends.
Use me to get closer to them.
For some reason they always get what they want.
And I can't deny, I am actually beautiful.
Especially on the inside.
It's a drug sometimes.
They are junkies, but it doesn't matter though.
Because I have love for me.
Text people just to chill
Random night, no response.
Good weekend come around.
Boredom, asking me what I am doing?
When any other time is me persuing.
Wondering what everyone else is doing.
They are wondering who I am with.
And can I get soemthing for them.
Looking for a hook up.
It is me they look up.
I know, to them, I'm just a free ride.
But I am way too nice sometimes.
I do it because I love it.
Who the heck am I to judge.
It is always easy for someone
To point out others problems.
I do not know though.
People try to use me to get to to others.
I am not better.
I let them do it.
However, I do not want to start trouble.
I do not want to cause pain.
I know that everything is not so plain.
I am way to nice.
I see the good in others.
Sometimes I wonder.
Is anyone deserving of my love.
I am a little older.
I am a little wiser.
But sometimes I just want peace.
In a ever dying society.
