When I am all alone
I can lose myself in the world of cyberspace
I can type out my emotion on documents
Where, if I hit “submit”, it can be sent just as it can be erased.
I am staring at the computer screen
Wondering if I am missing reality
I see the digital coding across my glasses
Where the worlds problems are not a greater fatality.
Here, I live in this Matrix sort of world
Where the truth is not found in a simulation
Only fantasy of just binary coding and words.
No hardships, no loneliness.
Letters and numbers
All understandable to this cyber geek
Like putting together logs and lumber
That is logic enough for me
Fake names and imaginative identities
Music, videos, MySpace, and Yahoo
E-mail and instant messaging capabilities
That is what this world has to offer, expressed creativity.
I do not want to be in the real world
I rather live in this ever-changing cyber world
But even there, it has flaws.
Yet, it makes me forget how much pain the world has caused.
A nerverending dream
I wish there was s sign
All I want to do is hide
But all i want to do is be with you.
I am watching all the roses die
My feelings is all I hide
Even though you tore me apart.
My love I have is still in my heart.
Adjusting what I know
I have been on my constant.
I am wanting for the night
But I am catching my doubts
Now, I turn off my eyes
Erasing all the lies
sitting on an imaginary hill
Wishing that love can be real.
I am drifting away
My feelings is all I hide
Even though you tore me apart
My love I have for you is still in my heart.
If Only...
There was a world where
I wouldn't have to worry.
About being myself
Where all my scares from the past
Will fade away.
A place where
People wouldn't have to take pills.
To hide their true selfs.
Where no one has to be done.
A place where we wouldn't
Have to worry about the stupid laws.
That chain us down.
A place where people
Wouldn't have to worry about fitting in.
A place where the world
Isn't revolved around a Barbie type girl.
A place where everyone isn't a clone.
But that is reality.
Because that place doen'y exist.
That place only happens in dreams.
I close my eyes.
I see him there.
I open my eyes.
He is still in my head.
Separated and apart.
The pain comes from the heart.
Our song comes on.
I start to cry.
My love is still here.
But my heart is gone.
I look in the mirror
I see darkness.
Can not stop my tears
Of the love you once had.
I tried so hard.
To be the perfect girlfriend.
Yet it wasn't enough.
Because you just broke my heart.
No matter how I feel anymore.
It makes no difference.
No matter how torn.
I will keep my promise to you.
I made that promise.
Thinking we will be together forever.
No matter how egotistical you are.
My love for you is true to its form.
The way I love you
Is clearly different from the way you love me.
I stayed true.
But what did you do for me?
Do what you want.
I can not do a thing.
I will still love you.
Like we were going to be together for life!
