Life, Thoughts Double-Sided

I always have these thoughts running through my head.
When I wake up, thoughts consume my brain.
Is this our human race?
Maybe the end of humanity?
My entire childhood I try to belong in a place.
Of course, family is number one
But as I grew older, not so much anymore.
I want a life I can claim.
I live with no regrets.
That's my motto that I aim.
I can follow a dream.
A dream to live my own life.
I knew what will happen.
But I am not a little girl.
I was always treated like one.
Like I don't know.
Like I can not comprehend the existence of the human race.
I am not ignorant but I live in a society of utter ignorance.
I am still the same human being
The same with emotional feelings.
You can not change nor phase me.
It is a state of mind.
Lost in the truth of my thoughts.
But that is what they are.
The truth flowing through my brain.
The conflict now
Wondering rather I keep them as thoughts or formulate them as words followed by sensible actions.