I can keep a smile on my face
But I know I can't hold it
Longer than this.
Happiness is so hard to find.
Better yet
Hard to keep.
I never had to hit rock bottom.
But to me
Being alone is about the sam thing.
In my head
I laugh uncontrollably.
But control is my silence.
It is funny how time change things.
Life is not a play thing.
You was always the one I can talk to.
Then that one night we took things further.
Did not think things could have occurred.
No regrets
My conscious never gets to me.
It became more sense to em.
Before, my pain was laughing at me.
I wasn't even looking to fall in love.
Didn't realize it until it had me down.
See, I love you.
I became you lady.
Everything started to change.
So happy I became you lady.
And my life will never be the same.
My weakness has always been your charm.
Happy that i found you.
And nothing in world
Can change the way I feel about you.
In love
So don't you ever go away.
All I want to do is to see people happy.
But everything I dream of I fail at.
One person who tried to mend it all
Is the only person I can rely on.
Everything is so hard to explain.
Saying they care or so they claim.
No one else even listens
Or simply pays attention
My mind drifts to find placement in life.
Somehow holding on tight
I try to stay positive
And hold my balance.
All while keeping a smile across my face.
Everything I try to accomplish seism to fall 10 feet under
Or so I wonder.
I am like a nightingale waiting to break free.
To spread my wings so I can flee.
Positive and negative spaces
So coherent, blending together to create life interlacing.
Put a bullet through my brain
The part where I supposed to hold intelligence.
In my mind that is where it all make sense.
Some sort of sense.
Trying to make sees of all this.
Dreams I once had, a distant memory
Trying to perform CPR every time and continuously failing.
When the sun rises it is watches over me.
I would leave the house at sunrise
Knowing I don't want to even come back.
My steps I backtrack.
And life leaves me behind.
I return after the sun sets.
Returning like nothing has happened.
I guess it is wrong to be human after all.
He has that smile
That shines in front of you.
He is on my mind
Like all the time.
When we touch I go weak
And I can hardly speak
We have been together for so long
But I still always thinking of him.
I am stubborn sometimes
Because I don't want someone taking care of me all the time.
Even when I feel along
He brings me back along the way.
Day after day
We have things to argue about
Somehow we find our way back to each other.
I don't want to be with no one else.
He takes a great look at himself.
He brings out the best in me.
He doesn't think any less of me.
I don't think less of him.
Even when we do the wrong things.
He loves me for me and I can't explain.
Because the love life is something we won't lose.
He is my love that I can not lose.
