No Pain, Just Peace

I do not expect anything in return
I need no validation.
I rather see peace and harmony.
Rather than pain and suffering.

I make sacrifices.
To be selfless.
I don't pass judgement.
I don't want the feeling of being loveless.

I am deathly afraid to be alone.
It has become more of a phobia.
So I rather help those around me.
I surround myself and help.

It is my calling and destiny.
I have known what I wanted all along.
It is those simple things that can make me smile.
Something peaceful and serene.

The Contrast of Dreams and Nightmares

Sometimes we have dreams and sometimes we have nightmares. Our dreams can sometimes come in the form of nightmares and vise-versa. To an extent we cannot escape from. We fall into the traps that we cannot pursue our ambitions and dreams. However, this conflict is chased away by serenity. However, another conflict arises in an abundance of rage. We acknowledge the haters, but only exist because we acknowledge them. There is a gap between these dreams and nightmares. They can be easily confused. Nightmares we can awaken from scared and shaken. Whatever was scaring us, does not exist in the real world. Our dreams bring us comfort, especially from the real world. However, we cannot escape the real world.

The real world can be a dream sometimes and a nightmare. People with mental illnesses come in varying degrees. It can start from glitches in emotion to down right schizophrenia. That is a complete nightmare. There are so many medications that can mask the symptoms; some are self-inflicted. There is really no fix. Addictions become entangled between a dream and a nightmare. It becomes trapped in a web and fall into awaking nightmare. We never forget who we are though. Self-medication is believed to be the vices of addiction. It can have you bury your heads in the deep sand or live life in a haze. Now, everyone can play the victim. The victim syndrome; it is mighty clever I might add. The time spent complaining and crying we don’t even realize it. There is an onset of different levels.  You can be the manipulator of the actual victim that you can never get past. Our lives has spun in circles and stalled out.


Sometimes we need to allow our inner dreamer to take flight, or we will tumble down into a nightmare. However, are you sure we live in the land of the free? With these problems we live in a waking nightmare that affects some and damage others. Some just want to fall back into a dream and never wake up to reality of what humanity has become.

I Love You Regardless

I love you no matter the skin you are in.
I love you whether the world thinks you sin.
I am here for you always.
I will never depart.

I love you regardless of your mental state.
Everyone I have loved, I loved unconditionally.
With you, it is the mind, body, and spirit.

There is no one else.
You could be a million miles away.
I will always find you anyway.

I love you regardless if we have money or not.
We may even fuss or fight.
You might even sleep on the couch.
I love you regardless of the situation we face.

I have known for a while we were made for each other.
Best friends or lovers.
The feeling is still the same.
We can change the world, just you and me.

I love you regardless.
We do not need to go out every time.
We can even have a picnic every night of the week.
I love us and how we are.

There will be days I am unhappy.
Even say things I do not mean.
I am afraid to be alone.
And I love you this deeply.

So when I say "I love you".
I do not do it to appease you.
I say it because I mean it truly.
No matter our situation in life.

Love and Sacrifice; No Procreation

All I wanted was to fall in love.
To be genuinely in love with a man. 
Someone strong enough to keep me sane.
But vulnerable enough to let me in.

I treat my man like a king.
Or, at least, try to.
This is no meaningless fling.
This is true love I am feeling.

Even though he loves me the same.
There's one thing pushing him away.
He wants to have children.
Even though it is with me, I do not desire it.

I am amongst the statistic of 30%
Women who do not want to procreate.
Procreation is not my life purpose.
Our relationship is now damaged by fate.

Somehow that is not a real reason.
There is no pleasing.
I guess it's all over now.
I suppose love is not strong enough to keep us together.

When I love it is sacred.
It is unconditional, full of sacrifices.
At least he can be happy.
However, I may never be.

I am beginning to lose all hope to love.
However, he is the only one I love.
More than words can express.
It just wasn't strong enough to keep us together.

The worst part is I want no one else.
There is no one else like him
Thus, we are still living together.
I just want it to all be ok again.