I'm Sorry, Please Forgive Me

I admit I have made a mistake.
Overstepping my boundaries
Which made me look fake.

I have always said I would never do the things I did.
I'm blinded by the infidelity of what I did.

To kiss a man that wasn't mine.
It was all just a matter of time.
Yet, you show me this "I don't care' attitude.
I guess it makes me blue.
Your semi-careless attitude.

He's my best friend, but I'm wrong for initiating.
I'm sorry
Please forgive me.

I just want you to understand.
That I want you to change for me.
To be the loving man that I somewhat see in fairytales.
Almost everything else fails.
Because I am loosing myself
Stop me
You said you love me
Then show me.

I love you
You are my glue.
My whole world
And my total future.

Artist Insomnia Spoken-Word

To reassure myself when I'm overwhelmed by the creeping sense of impending disaster and the all-encompassing fears both specified and vague that colonize my mind, body, and soul, all of which, from the completely far-fetched to the sometimes probable do me no good to contemplate and in fact make me miserable.

When I can't sleep, I write for passing the time when insomnia strikes and my brain is circling in on itself, cannibalizing the trivialities of the day and exaggerating the ticking of the clock, reminding me that every minute spent awake is another minute closer to when I'll have to get up, through many of the great artist and sages were insomniacs and thats part of how they got so much done. If I can't sleep then I might as well write and channel my misery into something productive.

Never Falling On Def Ears

God, I don't know where to begin.
3 years ago I met this guy right in front of me.
He became a friend to my heart
Te key to my future.
Lover of my soul.

Crazy thing,  he was a random person with a name.
Since that day my life took an interesting change.
Innocent pushed by passing.
Our paths surely not aligning.
But I need him still.
Always

Gave my heart to this lovely man.
One way street to a future plan.
Closed my eyes and he's still here.
He's been with me for years.

My heart found nothing lesser
It definitely continues to get better.
I still spend my nights writing love letters.
Never falling on def ears.

He's a simple friend
Made especially for me
This isn't a phase just passing by.
He is the missing pieces to my life.

Midnight Rantings of A Young Adult

I burst out into a tear
Wondering why we don't see each other.
We have been together for so long
Yet I go weeks without seeing your face.
I wish we had our own place to call home
At the same time
Trying to give you your space.

Never cared about the pain
But you helped me to change
If someone gives the truth you got to give back the same
You give it all to me
And never asked for a thing
I gave my all to you
I didn't know what it could bring.
With you
Yet,

I am tired of seeing everyone
Engaged
Pregnant
Or their own place.
It puts a sort of un-accomplishment
Upon my face.

These Words In My Head

Never made it as a wise girl.
I couldn't cut is as a poor gal stealing.
Tired of feeling like a blind gal.
I'm sick of sight without a sense of healing.

This is me.
What I really am
Sometimes.
These words in my head
Damn near screaming.

Its not like anyone to say sorry.
I was waiting on a different story.
Somehow I'm mistaken.
For handing a heart worth breaking.
I've been wrong.
I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle.

Its like they don't know that.
I work heard and I swear I do.
And it must have been bad.
Because my dreams must of damn near killed it.

This is me
What I really am.
Sometimes
These words in my head.
Damn near screaming.