Beautiful Dark Twisted Dream

I find myself walking
Walking in darkness.
Not because I’m lost
But because of my infliction is flawless

Sometimes I stand
Trying to feel strong
But in the end I break down
Trying to hold on.

I manage to sleep
But afraid you may leave me
Where everyone else has done before
Somehow you are not understanding me.

I try so hard to be right.
To be what others need me to be
But being myself is never enough.
Because I find myself saying sorry for you to listen to me.

I dream first of my happiness
But those dreams comes crashing
Becoming a familiar pain
I wish would just disappear.