Anniversary

I sit here wondering what went wrong beteen us.
I look at my calender
When our love first erupt.
What our day would of been.
Sometimes I even cry
I still wonder why.
I believed in all the words you say
Yet I look at this calender of what use to be our day.
Breaking my heart back in December
Which I clearly remember.
You go with someone you left me for.
It was like we lived together and you just walked out the door.
I thought I was the loyalty you needed.
I trusted you.
Yet, you decived me.
Yet, I still look at this calender wishing we were ever true.
I go with someone else
It doesn't compare to what I had with you.
I wish you knew that too.
My heart is like a diary.
Only one person can open it.
I thought you were those pages I can open up to.
You were that person.
So I thought.
I sit here
Wondering,
Looking at this calender
Looking at the day of what used to be our anniversary of 4/19/2006

Notebook

Alive feelings
pouring sad memories
a collection; a memoir
Piece by piece I put together
34 days and a life time
something touched. Something left
far away from mundane truth
or wars that were left unturned
some blood streaks from heart
some slow passion of sweetest lips
something to forget to
something to hold on.
Everything is everything
a touch never undone...

I read and feel. Every time
A new book, a new tale
A past history, a truth
Lies and broken promises
Metamorphic physics, memories
As if I live around you; in them
People, leaders, heroes, villains
Reinventing past; age of silence

Longings to belong to; persuasion
Loving to be unloved; be loved
Stories, poems, tales and reasons
Simple things mundane fathoms
Time watch; like a sand glass
Written history and fairy tales
Words : may be true or lies
Missing emotions ; urban feel
Blood, death, birth, love
Bodies of innocence; betrayals
Bodies of passion; in rubbles
Horror to relive; love to re-invent.